In the Beginning

I've been wanting to start this blog for like 6 months now and i never have.  why?  It never felt complete.  the name of the blog was never quite right, I can't get the dang menu right and i wasn't sure if i had a awesome witty story to start with.  it got me thinking of a song by Building 429 and yes- this is about to get deep - but nothing is ever really in place right --- we always feel a little out of sorts.  Something is always not what we want, where we want it or how we want it.  It's God's way of telling us that this is not where we ultimately belong.  Okay so not that my blog is a sign from God or anything but it made me realize i just need to dive in (Steven Curtis Chapman anyone?).

I started a blog once before, and i didn't do a very good job.  I thought that once I had a baby I would find all this amazingly funny stuff to blog about and i would just be dying to get to my computer to write about the latest thing little Evie did.  Then I realized --- I want to be there when she does these things... and then I want to sleep!

                                                    

So the first 6 weeks I almost pulled all my hair out.  Ah to be a first time mom again ..NOT AT ALL.  I had no idea what I was doing.  I wasn't working but I had no free time.  Trying to sneak in a meal before my little girl started screaming again.  Watching HORRIBLE day time television (I never want to go back -- thank goodness for DVR and internet tv - next time I will plan better).  Anyway, trying to type a blog single and left handed (you all know what I mean)  would have been impossible.  I do have friends who do it and I read their witty blogs with admiration (Whine and Cheez).

After 6 weeks, my little darling turned into an angle and I didn't want to miss a thing.  The idea of a blog seemed, well, silly.  That brings me to now... 4 1/2 months later and I realize again that I want to talk about my life.  I want something to look back on and laugh at how silly I was, remember why I said I would never do "that" again..and then did it again.  Most of all i just want to look back at what we (my family) did.  Besides, whose going to read this?  Probably just my husband and closest friends.  So here goes...  .